Thought Disorder

Monday, January 31, 2005

my preetay hp

[my gorgeous phone-i love it.]

i look like a retard.i do.
some people likes blowing my hair.
some people say my hair is nice.ehh!><
some people look at me and they seems to have nothing to say.
ohwell.

gena's back.yes she is.
she walks in a funny way.
like her head tilted towards the right and her shoulders look tensed-they cant seem to relax.
haha
we like imitating her
i mean not really as in-make fun
we are just playing
haha
and she broke one of the most impt sch rules!
no sling bag-ehh!
she brought one
i tink i wanna carry it for her
then i will get caught
lol!
cos her wound is like still healing and v v v pain

i noticed some people are feeling quite jealous today.
arent they.
there's nothng to be jealous about cus we dont even like them.

gena says when we go back hips we wear dhs socks
lame rite!
i have at home
haha
might consider..

sorry for bothering you people out there today
like telling you i bought new phone and its v nice
haha sorry!
i just cant help it
ziren was like getting sick of me
nvm
should be i get sick of him
he's so boring
i miss sitting with nat
but nxt week then change.
sadness!
and someone's bdae is coming worh..
and this person soooooo damn excited man
wanna buy prez
still ask me what [she] likes
haha
i just tell [him] lorh
all the impractical stuff
yeah i am lame.

today my socks were so damn low.ohman
they were sooo loose and i had to pull them up when i went for flag raising
scared!=X
really v low
no time to find another one
was late today
woke up late
sadness rite.

tmr-grammar test.
wed-hcl spelling,science test,compre and summary test
thurs-passup zhouji
fri-math test- AGAIN!
mdm tay is damn ass.
this week is damn fully packed of tests.i tink of it i feel like dieing.i would rather die.it beats studying like mad and getting lesser marks than some people who dont even study at all but tyco get high marks.
the world is getting unfair.
really unfair.
sadd!

haha.some people had really black face today.why ah.i tink i know.hehx.i am so smart!**
but,during pccg,i was niaoing wanye again!haha damn lame.we were supposed to tick our good points and bad points then i ask wanye to let me c hers
got v little-unexpected man!
haha so i was saying
"hey..y u nver tick born leader???i tink u got alot of leadership qualities ehh......."
then she was like tiam.
hahah!
love niaoing her.
soooooooo fun.

i look different with specs issit?do i?i mean i dont wear but i always borrow gena's to wear..haha i know i am mad but i like wearing-makes me look nicer.ehh!lolx.and plus my hair in such a state.duhh!

tink i gta start revising for science-atoms and ions make me nuts and confused.
jap tmr!
yayness` =)

[looking forward to see yah.=))]

9:25 PM

Sunday, January 30, 2005

retards

[i look like a retard]

i do.i do.i look like a retard.
anyway,i bought the new siemens phone today.
its not m65-its cx65
damn nice can
BIG BIG SCREENS
sehbohh!
I LOVE IT!!!
it rocks!
so seh.
5 times zoom.
seh!
but i dunno how to operate it leh
not really
must go read
not now

just finished english article!
whoaness.
my summary is like 1 whole page!
cus my article is lika 4 pages
nvm
realised we have jianbao to do in the morning
when audrey told me
then i was oyah.
but nvm
today was kinda sian
ate sakae sushi for dinner
red plate=one for $6.50
looks damn nice!
looks delicious
dont have the chance to taste it
sadness
before tll went around hunting for new fast food restaurants
got this shop called fuzzie biles
nice!
really
but damn ex
is like $4.80 for a sandwich
$2 for a drink
but really full aft eating it
my dinner i cant even finish
then the gal was like trying to persuade me to buy their cookies
but i in a rush
so said i will buy nxt week.
i tink i will
cos their sandwich alrd damn nice.
=))

now waiting for uncle kianhong to finish up his article review
so dua pai rite
must help him print somemore
he listen to 958 de leh!
sehbohh
bball pro oso
3 pointer chop 3 in a row
pro not!
he damn clever can
nvm.

i hope we can change places tmr
cus i dont wanna sit with ziren anymore
damn sian lorh
really bored
booness!

tmr take my mortal for xyz!
sooooo xcited
first ting in d morning shall look for cindy and tingpei
so niceeee
bought the tings i wanna give liao
boys and girls oso can use
and bought my postcards alrd.
sian!
i wanna know who issit.

tmr will be boring
boringboring really boring.

sadness.
i wanna buy billabong visor.
i wanna buy adidas dumbells.
i wanna buy adidas sports outfits.

uncle kianhong-makeup ur mind.
i wanna sleep liao leh
hurry.

11:42 PM

tired.

1.47am- i aint sleeping.
do home econs proj until i wanna flop!
projects are dumb and it's like natalie and qian dont wanna help me
nat doesnt seem to be doing anything
sadness.
nvm finally done with the research and printing
have been doing it for half of the day
totally neglected my homework!
think i gonna get a new phone tmr.
sehbohh!
siemens m65
looks nubbad
has a big big screen
i like big screens
its nice

i cut my hair today!
damn short and i think i look ok.
but i feel cooling
not freakingly messy
its better right.

for the article review i am like finishing
the summary already 3/4 done and the rest finished liao
so glad
cos need to pass up on mon
to wee
semblance of order shit.

anw,gena's alright
hehx.
when will she be back i dont know

i am so damned hell tired now
anw, xyz's gonna play angel and mortal
funn!
tmr [mon] gonna get my mortal from cindy
ehh!
but only among sec 2s
not really THAT fun
i mean if we include seniors
if would be more fun
cus i dont really know all the seniors
sec3, sec4
not alot
just afew
i cunt even recognise some and i dont even know they my seniors
i dont know their names
sian!
i am such a lousy junior
sadness.
i already bought my present for my mortal
the prob is:
who's my mortal
tmr i am gonna find out
whoa.
kinda scary though.

tuan yuan fan this sat!
hope its fun =)

1:46 AM

Friday, January 28, 2005

mary

[sometimes i just couldnt let go]

mary chua ma li
suupperrbb name!sehbohh!i 'created' de worh.cool rites.
cos home e.c we still have one more survey left
then i just tikam fill in
but mary chua is so damn obvious right?
is like dohh!
yah-that woman lo.

today was one of the most sianned day ever!
actually kind of anticipated to play bball.
but,recess only me and nat cheong down to play
dunno where the rest die to
but the moral is- friday is boring!
fridays are boring
esp today
the reason is that nobody seemed to be free to play bball
nat-got sjab aft sch
audd-got wushu
qian-got track at 4
maine-got bball training
jing-got cs
wanye-got cs
gena-NOT HERE TODAY
i really hope she's alright
i hope everything went fine
cos i msg her when i reached home but she hven reply
only left me!
cos i now no co
dohh!how can i-ME,FELICIA YAP be in the main orchestra???
its like duhh.
sadness
bball was extremely boring
did i mention i fell down and got a gash on my leg?
hmm..yes the leg
bleeding man`think pain not
sadness!
my hair is in a mess
it is!booooooooo.
going to cut tis weekend!
gonna cut super short
so hot man!
feel freakingly crazy

i was tinking-
next time if got co pracs
it will be damn hectic
plus my erhu skills are like sucking shit
and they got back their results!
grade 2
i dont wanna fail
i dont know my results
peijean got 130
superr!
prooooo one lorh she
haha

i rarely ate today
like i drank milo in the morn and ate wanton aft sch
then when i came home i was starving
then i ate half a loaf of bread!
whoaness
now i feel ok
damn
it super sian today
still got alot of things to do lehh!
but i remain so nonchalent
what the hell
so many homework!
next week got eng and science test
SCIENCE-DAMN YOU I MUST PASS YOU WITH FLYING COLOURS

and my neighbour's nephew
NG DING XUAN
yes him
he's in bball
he was supposed to sit my dad's car to school
cos he live in sengkang
who is he
how does he look like
i tink is that guy with the spiky hair at 3rd lang
who takes french
i once saw his name tag-
ng ding xuan
wtf!
its so small-i mean the handwriting-how can i be so sure
quite seh - i mean him
nvm
i was like looking thru all the co,band,scouts cca for his name
but dont have
then i went to look at bball
WAH KAU I SAW IT LOR
i totally cant believe it lorh
its like duhh!
whatdeheck
then i was like so so so very shocked
very shocked
i cant believe it anyway
ohman
WHO IS HE!!?

gotta hunt for a nice hairstyle to cut
shall go hunting thru frenster
got alot pple got nice hairstyles
and i want v v v short one
cant stand it being long
damn hot and irritating
pple dont find it messy
but i do!
waddeheck

did home econs proj with qian aft we played bball
at like 2 smth
very sian lorh!
thus
mary chua ma li
was born
haha!
super lame!

sadness
today bball without nat v v v v v boring
haha
she said that day i nver play ball on wed cos i got erhu
she said she v bored
wth!
nvm
everyone dont seem free nowadays
so we must cherish our free times
booness
when nat was falling in
me and jingjing walked past
then we laughed
nat smiled but if she laughed her seniors will scold
poor thing!
sadness
must prac my lay-ups
shermaine say she saw me doing today when she was coming to school
she say i look v lame
fine lorh
like i can do lidat!
sian lorh

sianned!
hungry!
stressed!
tired!
messy!
my thoughts are messy
so is my hair

6:31 PM

Thursday, January 27, 2005

tired.i am.i really am.

i am so tired

i dont wanna think of the future

i wanna fall into a deep sleep

i will sleep forever

i will just carry on

i will be rid of all problems

i will just fade a w a y
i wont wake up from my perfect dream

i dont wana be disturbed
i am worthless

i hate myself

i hate my life

i have no reason to live

there's no reason to live
i will always be dreaming of the perfect place

where idyllic dreams exists

where is it

i am frantically searching

i know i will always be searching

because i am so tired of this life

and this world

i really am

i just dont wanna think about it

my fatigue

i dont wanna give a fugging shit

cos i hate

i hate myself

and i know its impossible to wake up

from this horrible dream

and i know

i will always be

trapped inside

this sickening world

of mine

f ore ver

i wont be able to breakaway

11:29 PM

school's gonna suck

[its because i always just a blind eye to everything]
sometimes i feel dao
sometimes i feel mad
ohwell.gonna fail math test.was like cheonging through everything and feeling real confused.gena said she could only do two and the rest all wrong.wtf!i think nat breezed through it.so proooo!
tmr gena going for operation.wish her all the best yeah?just a minor one only.but,she really damn excited! hehx.mad ass.crazy pok.

i am still in search of my laughter.where is it.where are you.i am frantically looking for you.

managed to laugh a little during jap.boo!it went away after a while.wth!when it comes back i gonna make sure it stays.

i cannot stand her attitude.
she's like so ehh!
think she very dua pai
then is like she always snap at people
whats your problem
is like we are supposed to look at your black face
and everything you ask me to do
fk you
you tink i want
i dont want i tell you
cant you just piss off
u happy u talk to me nicely
u not happy u snap at people
wth!
i cant stand you
i seriously cant
ohman.

nvm!
there was this RI guy.i didnt know he was in my jap class anyway-but he's huiwen's ex classmate or what.he damn what!he sprayed water at huiwen and i also kana.wtf!he damn ap can.is senghan's friend-and senghan is NOT my friend tankkew.no way.that irritating guy.tmd!fat ass.then he was standing bhind me on the bus and i kept moving away.wadanass! he damn lame can.freakko.

my hair feels like a jungle.messy and i tink its damn stubborn.
gonna cut this weekend!i am so waiting for it` yes i am.whoaness.

i feel like sleeping early today
damn tired
there's like nth to blog abt
all my frustrations have been thrown off.

playing bball tmr!

6:39 PM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

HEY I M BACK

[I braved through the storm and stormy seas]
hey guys,finally back after so long`-well,not really in the sense 'long' but just like five days or so.ehh!i totally will die without the comp.
firstly,my story-
my computer just simply crashed and had to get a new one.
and now i ve got it
whoa it rocks!
i am so freakingly happy as i dont have to tolerate the irritating win98.it sucks.

today
was like kinda bad.really bad.
boring and my hair is getting in a mess when pple dont think so.
i feel like a jungle.
erhu was like ehh!
i didnt know how to play everything
yes practically everything
cos i ponned last week
didnt bring my instru
today after school had to rush there
nver even play bball!
but ended up kinda late
half hour late
wtf!
haha wearing specs really feels different
i mean i am not wearing specs now
just borrowed gena's to wear and its like looking at the world through two rectangle things
funny!
75deg enough for me
alot of tests coming up-damn shit!wth!
chinese is gonna be so blooody tough can
and why everyone's playing angel and mortal game?
is like-so lame!
phew that rhoda's gonna reset the whole thing
luckky!
or else i gotta buy a barbie doll`
dohh!
today got alot of homework!
finish blogging then go do
think will do until q late
boooness
sadness
anyway my printer's ok already!
lalalala
the guy really damn pro-ed
next time dont have to plead pple to print for me`!
greatness
and pw is damn gay
what fking business thing
gay!
and the tcher really lao gu dong
wtf!
sian lo
haha i must still say the comp rocks`!
itdoes.yayness!

i need laughter.
seriously.
i hve been having mood swings these days
not on people but on myself
waddehell!
sometimes i really feel damn fucked up
sometimes i go crazy
sometimes i smile and laugh
whats the prob
ohman
must go sort it out

gotta build up my arm muscle!
do guys pumping everyday!
buy adidas weights and dumbells!
so spastic!

9:47 PM

Thursday, January 20, 2005

wheeness.

[we] need them not -
today i felt quite awake.
woke up quite late today.slept very early last night cos i was so damn tired i think i will flop dead onto the floor.bball under the hot sun is killing me.and yes did i mention that we all were niaoing wanye ytd?i dont think so.we were like playing horse then i was the first then followed by wanye.then shermaine was last and she keep chopping and damn i missed and in the end i lost horse so had to buy drinks.i dont wanna play with her anymore.ass.then sometimes she score i will also score then wanye couldnt cos her shooting is like shit then she will like air ball.when i score we will like go "ole-ole-ole" and scream like mad.then when wanye never score we will laugh silently.and she shoots like straight passing and she was trying to imitate shermaine and she tried 3 pointer and she aired cos the ball was going like straight??!!then we were doing lay ups and she was like cannot even do lorh.bhb!patricia attempted to shoot and she was like lecturing her say "nonono u must hold the ball liddat" and we were like hmmmm
damn niao!we simple love niaoing her.
what leadership qualities.
and yes i would like to thank gena for sending me home ytd.

i didnt really complete much of my homework and jap homework i didnt even do at all!bah.

so angry in the morning bcos of shermaine.like gotta wait for her to passup lit wkshts.i was like late man and she was like heckkare liddat.

acc is mad.yes it is.cos tcher said that we will have test on acc without opening book.wtf!

for science we went to the lab and this thing is so damn funny man.we were like sooooo lame! me nat jing.jing gave us the idea of clipping test tube pickers [or whatever is it] onto people's skirts,at the folds yeah?haha she failed on jolene but nat went to clip two test tube pickers onto the back of jolene's skirt and also my small clip onto the folds.then it looked damn spastic and we were like laughing and laughing like mad people.so spas!then jolene got up and went to the front.she didnt know!she walks funnily and plus the things that are clipped to her skirt makes it double funny!haha then it was damn lame man and we were laughing till like what? my muscles hurt kk! the things were like swinging here and there and we were like so mad about it.then jing clipped on jonathan and the thing was like also swinging around man.funny!

music was damn fun i say!angklung nice man.thursdays simply rock!

went for 3rd lang.kinda boring and i tikam`ed for the quiz.felicia was like practically everything blank then she was frantically copying mine and i tell you we are gonna fail!and i was singing elmo song throughout the whole jap class and making up lame stuff.then i was asking people to say "who" three times and hahah! we tricked them!so fun.dont tell you what.gonna trick pple!reached home kinda early.

samantha says i am psyhic.ehh!i can only feel like something strong not predict the future or what.i can feel like things or people's mood or what.ehh!psyhic? probably not.sometimes have strong feelings or what.i mean like ... feelings? hah.

[our] locker rocks!

fun day.thursdays are nice!they rock!

6:43 PM

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

tired `

tiring day!
hectic siahx.
i am really damn tired and hungry.
regretted playing bball till so late.
got tons of homework.
and i am damn dark with a pale lip.
ehh!
i want go cut hair!
boooooooo.
but me and audrey like got no free day leh!
howhow.
she free i not free.i free she not.
dohh!!!
must hone my lay-up skills!
so lousy.
i mean i am only a beginner
me nat and jinghuan were like practising like siao.
i got one successful one!
sehh bohh!
out of like so many..
finally.
must practise more man`!
shermaine pok says we are despo for lay-up
wadever.fat ass!
i hope that the stealer will own up to his crimes cos you know what will happen
the sixletter name guy.
yes u!
better own up
cos u dont wanna kiw to catch you rite.
so sick in the mind
whats ur prob
you.are.the.prime.suspect
you behaviour shows me that ure guilty
dont deny
hope the police catches you and put you in jail.
and u be expelled from dhs
f off!

aft blogging shall do my homework.booness!so much.friday going to cut hair- i guess! cus my mama wanna tag along.gooseberry! irritating ass`
my wrinkles are still there.
i dont wanna be old!

6:58 PM

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

sadness!

monday blues.tuesday rules.
[1701]

didnt blog ytd.comp sort of crashed.oh man its always liddat.i cant stand it.
ytd was a kinda boring day.kinda short.after school had nothing to do.planned to stay in sch to do finish my untouched homework or maybe just go home and do.but landed up going bugis after nat's great suggestion.it was really great.lame!sadness`
went to take 2 rounds of neos.1st time we damn blur then we were like *lost* and the neoprints didnt turn out that nice.but it was damn lame.really lame.unsatisfied by the results->we went to take another time though we were broke.kinda.useed the same machine.nice machine but a pity we used it for the 1st time.><
2nd time->nice!lame lo.
then went to eat tako pachi.i realised these few days i ve been eating alot.boooooo!
takopachi rocks k.
did i mention during ms wee's lesson i was niaoing wanye all the way.so sehh! we [me nat qian maine] were asking her to write and present then she was saying it wasnt fair then i niaoed her.i said, "then you got chance to show your leadership qualities what..." we all started laughing.laugh laugh laugh.silent laughs.laugh till i cried.think os it still wanna laugh!wanye black face whole day.~.~

[1801]
today_
long day man.it really felt long.
but firstly i would like to remind people to keep their wallets and anything valuable safely with you and never leave it lying around on the table or wherever if you re not looking.
cos there have been case of missing wallets[stolen money]happening in my class.the wallets were found in the guys' toilet.>.O money->gone`.hmm.
keep it safely cos mr kiw is investigating into the matter.bahhhh`.
where was i.yeah.long day.loads and loads of never ending homework.
ms wee was so kind.
she gave us an individual do-on-the-spot assignment that needs to separate our tables.and we cant refer and the assignment is graded.
she is kind.
really KIND.
math test was like so nerve wrecking.amplifying atmosphere.my heart was beating so damn fast.2nd test of the year!ytd 1st.got the kao cha.we got it back liao!today got it back.boooo.
then had he today.damn my mum flushed my white towel for HE into the toilet bowl.oh man.ask wanye to bring.LEADERSHIP MAH..
and my face is like a piece of crumpled paper!!booo!cus i was sunburnt and my skin all peeling off..when i frown can c all the 'wrinkles' around my nose.WHY????!!!
3rd lang in the afternoon.aft sch.kinda boring.me and felicia are still looking for our laughter.the feeling of laughter.where has it gone.i am sooooo desperate for it.*laughter___i m so looking for uuu.
then acty supposed to take 53 home straightaway but ended up going to j8 with amelia.bah.acty go there to buy ONE PRESENT NIah.we took like 1 WHOLE HOUR.oh man.cus we wander around and yah v lame lah.went to eat tako pachi.so nice!bugis one is nicer.really.really.

go find some cool edison pics to stick on [our] locker!wheeeee__*

10:06 PM

Sunday, January 16, 2005

life

suddenly a question popped my head.
why.
why.
why do i live.
what purpose do i have in my life.
what do i live for.
what do i want to do in my life.
what will i do with my life.
ohman.
so many questions bombard me.
i realise we ve gotta plan.plan ahead of us.
i ve gotta plan.
we must plan.
oh man.
what crapp am i talking about.
i am so damn fugg up by my comp.
i tink its crashing.
then all my projects will die-one by one with a domino effect.
nvm.
i think i am getting alot of mood swings these days.
maybe its not mood swings.
i am just fugg up by life.
sometimes i wonder.
about things
why this
why that
what if
it crashes my brain
and sometimes i will think and think
and think
then i will suddenly become angry
i will feel isolated
i will feel stressed
i feel sad
i try to take things away from my mind
sometimes when i am in the midst of doing homework or sumting
i feel my mind drifting to something
then i will think about it
then i will think of it
i feel guilty
ashamed
i will think of sadness
happiness
i will start to feel frustrated
i will scream off
i feel mad.
i think
why
why
why
why
these happen
why
everything happen
i try to control me
i slam my fists onto the wall
sometimes i tear
sometimes i laugh

which is the real side of me.

no one holds the key to it.
i am in search of me.
me.me.ME.

9:39 PM

Saturday, January 15, 2005

ytd and today.

[1401]
damn me.i totally forgot to bring most of my books!and my file-the main one.crazy me.><
oh wells.the lessons ytd were quite boring.
brought bball ytd.nat was late for sch.she ponned pe.nvm.
in the morn b4 flag raising went to play bball.with eugene sean and kiwi and maine and qian and aud.
me and aud just stand there and sleep.
boohh!
twc said one day she will send me up to mr kiw's office for display.
hmm.
recess played bball.again.
next time i dont ever wanna play with our class boys anymore.
they were like so..UNDESCRIBABLE.
nonono.i dont wanna play with them.
then like over 10 people were crowding in a half court.
UN FUN!
so sian.
zhenwei-uncle u are too tall.hongsheng-too hiong;dont be mad.jonathan-pls dont hug the ball.lolx.
i cant rmb who won or lost.
nvm.
it was so unfun purlease.
dont lend them my bball nxt time.
then shermaine had bball trials i think.
whatever.
lessons ended at 1225 ytd!
yay! _
then me and nat rushed to bball court to play.
lolx.so lame hoh.
played so many matches.played till 5.30!nonstop.
WHOA.
i am sunburnt-NOW.
lolx.
i was lousy.
at first many of us stayed back to play.
me,nat,maine,qian,cynthia,jing,jinghuan,gena
and alot of other pple joined us while we playing
got yanting,mabel,weili,amelia,elysia,jiahui,coumin,grace and some others.i cun rmb.or maybe thats all.
quite sian.just stand there and sleep.
yes,sleep.
i like coumin's hair.so brown and nice.-UNLIKE SHERMAINE'S.
then when everyone left,it seemed like shermaine was training her juniors [coumin and grace] rather than us playing bball.
ohwell.
shermaine and qiannie left.
left me jing nat and gena
and yes did i mention i injured my finger again.
nvm.
boo!
then when we played match was kinda mundane.
sian.
we played horse.
jing like to saico me.
lolx.
but still kinda sian.
nat and gena wandered off to dunno where.
i can c that nat likes gena alot alot.
i tink she likes her more than me.
yixiu joined us for bball.
tjc rocks!
yay!
ruiwen is kinda wrong.
yixiu described till v nice!
hehx.
then went home at 5.30.
me and gena and yixiu took 158.
nat-her dad fetch her lah.
jing-she walked home.
i tink that nat like gena alot alot alot.why bcus she kept sticking to her and even when we boarded the bus she was holding her back or what.i have a really strong feeling that nat hates me.she dislikes me.she always nver talk to me nowadays.i mean really talk.she seems to have fun more with gena.i wish i could just die away.
my next aim to go to tjc//vjc!

10:16 AM

Friday, January 14, 2005

audrey

i tink among all my friends-> audrey understands me the most.
hehx.
u rawk man!
altho we dont really hang out in sch.
yeah she still understand me alot.yeah.
meybe cus we in same situations i guess.
hehx.
i like talking to uu!
maybe i shud tell her.
i feel safer!
yeah.

7:22 PM

Thursday, January 13, 2005

today

today.today.today.
is another worse day.
bad.bad.bad.
today.
kind of boring as usual.
ACC IS SO CRAZY.
LOH QY IS LIKE SHIT.
she gave us this china map den let us copy where the settlements of china were.
firstly,i would like to comment.
NO 1, the wordings are too small to be seen.
NO 2, why should we learn about china.
NO 3, i havent finish copying the transparency yet.
NO 4, WE ARE SINGAPOREANS!
it means that we shoudnt learn about CHINA.the hist,where the places are located and stuff.
probably its HISTORY and GEOGRAPHY combined and taught in CHINESE.
and then we had CHINESE presentation today.yeah my 'masterpiece' gettit.
gena didnt know to read ALOT OF WORDS LO.den we kana suan by twc say what our zao4 ju4 not good.what the crapp!me.me.ME!
so lame man.
music was nice.our first lesson.mr ADEL.ADEL=MY COUS NAME.a girl but cher is a guy.yeahyeah.nice.malay instrus.cool right.jing was going mad over it.
talking about jingjing,i am so furious about our change of index nos.
thanks to gena thien and belinda wang.
gena becomes 16,belinda 17 [WHYWHY!!!??? SEVENTEEN IS MINE FOREVER!],jingjing 18,ME 19,qian 20,wanye 21.
tell me it sucks.it does.seventeen rocks ok.
its unfair.
[belinda] took my precious no away.
damn!
why cant they be 33,34.
BOOOOO.
fine.FINE LO.
awwww.
and today we had quite alot of homework.aft blogging shall start on it.boo.next week got math and chi bk test.and week 7 got hist test.MUST SCORE WELL!memorise,memorise,MEMORISE!
and to daphne->I HOPE U WILL DO WELL IN YOUR PSLE.must score 240 and above kk.
after sch went to 3rd lang.
the cher v troublesome.aww.ask us to write furigana or else don have to hand in.freakko![uoy] traeh i
yah then me and bun missed the 53 bus.gawd.waited for q a long time till the bus came.><
senghan and eugene lee were at the bus stop. oot uoy
blah.
dan senghan got off somewhere near heartland mall and then huiwen and amelia say he wave to me i nv wave bk.wah diao lo.i din even see k.its not my fault.no big deal.
and i am kind of hungry aft one whole day of 'starvation'.KINDA broke and i only ate an apple the whole day.and also drank tea with milk.packeted from coffeeshop.and ate light stuff->bread.one piece.
thus,it marks the start of my JOURNEY.

6:07 PM

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

worse day

today is the worst worst day ever.
dont wanna think of it.
boo!
double boo!
triple boo!
played bball today.
came to sch kinda late.den nat sherm qian dey came down to play ball then i met them on my way up so went to play bball` lol.
lessons were so boring.sian.
then got aftnn lessons somemore!
and got damn lot of homework and hist proj - uncomplete`!
cus today dont have pw we could leave at 3.20 so yeah went to play bball cus 5 got erhu.
i was lousy.
THE WEATHER WAS BLARDY SUCKING CAN.
so hot.i was wearin converse dat canvas shoe then my sole was like BURNING!
lolx
got a great tan and stinkkay smell!
yah v fun but i was sleepin.sleeping away..
acbc wy!
sudnt have gone to erhu cus today like acty no erhu and mary wasnt even there.today got tsunami concert.shud have stayed in sch to play bball.><
but mary came and she was flaunting her erhu skills.make us jealous.bahh!lolx.
we dint have lessons.
we heard her play her erhu.
then we were like WOW
but no lesson!
yeah.
nv prac anw.
yeah i was damn tired aft erhu i felt like flopping onto the floor while going home cus my bag and erhu damn heavy and i really lethargic!booooooooo`.
sleep now.acty i hven finished my sch hmework.got science review qn and math-a few qn left.done with jap and home econs.tmr got chi ppt!presentation!our turn.hven read my script yet.WY SAID MUST READ PErFECTLY.BHB!like we CANNOT READ LIDDAT.so much hmewrk!WY DAMN DESPO LO.I ASK HER Y THEY SARBO ME TO BE LIT REP den i say SHE SHUD BE LIT REP den she say NO ONE VOTE FOR HER.AP LEH!then everytime wanna solo when playin bball and she TYCO chop or get in WE WILL NIAO HER SAY 'wah,NETBALL DE LEH!'
and yes hist wksht-bloody!

11:10 PM

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

3 h of ppt.

WHOA!
FINALLY done with chinese ppt!
phew.
its no fair!they make me do ALL THE TYPING AND PPT!and what do i get in return- nothing except tired fingers,strained n bleary eyes and a painful back.
but i volunteered to do it.oh man i shud blame me.ME!
and i hven touched sch homework yet.
now is 9.25pm.
die!
i feel lethargic.
i still got erhu tmr!
i still got UNCOMPLETED JAP COMPO!
i still got HIST PPT-which i MUST FINISH by fri or so.
WHY?!!
so unfair.
qian's comp seems to be MAD!
nvm.
wahhhhhh`.
looks like ITS GONNA BE A LONG NIGHT..
and yes-LIT!
hven do.
bloody hell.
i am so tired i think i will flop down and just die.
serves me right!
and i SERIOUSLY NEED A PRINTER.
bloody i am always asking pple to print things for me.
booo!
both my printers spoil!
unfair!
i wished i was sick tmr.
=)

I have a dream.

9:20 PM

Sunday, January 09, 2005

moved again`.

hey guys.gals.friends.passerbys.anyone out there-
i ve moved: AGAIN!
so sorry for the inconvenience.
change ur links will u.
thanks.
my two previous blogs will be still there.
they are my memories.
i cant possibly delete them right.
hehx.

shall blog about today.
bought pick and mix!
so expensive` damn i shudnt have gone 7 eleven to buy cus its bloody ex.dont go kae.go mini toons.but eat till shuang can.
laughing throughout the whole chi lesson.
stella+jasmine=LAME!
double lame.
hahx.
i havent read finished my chi book- for the 2nd time.
damn.
and now its like SO LATE.
how am i gonna read finish by tmr.
tmr got test!!
bahhhh`.
unfair!
all the homework keeps pouring in.
and i hven touched my eng vocab.
wadtodo.
this whole weekend have been slacking endlessly.
i cant help it.
and erhu- triple boo!
wednesday- thinking of it i feel sian.and de-energized.
and damn tues gta passup my jap compo.
how GREAT is it.
life is in a mess now.
i am unable to do something to MY OWN LIFE.
i must do something.
i have to.
quit computer!
quit playing bball for a while!
quit slacking!
quit tv!
quit eating!
quit dreaming!
just strive hard`!
strive harder` go dude.
who am i talking to.
and yes-I NEED A HAIRCUT.
my wax will only make it be 'in place' temporary.
soon i will get caught by kiw;
bah!

10:28 PM

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Felicia studied in Dunman High School, loves elmo, is a major drama addict and is a cake lover. She has quit coffee even though she loves it.